Be here NOW.
"where you are is now the best place to be."
I was praying about wanting adventure and being frustrated with my physical location because here, doesn't offer much of that. But, when God responded I knew He wasn't talking about school, or my dorm, or in this chair. He wanted to go deeper, He wanted to find out what I was really craving deep inside my heart. Relationship.
This year, I really wanted to prioritize 4 things; my friendships, school, the gym, but especially reading scripture. I had gotten really lazy with this. I felt like prayer was enough.
I was so wrong.
How was I supposed to protect myself against the enemy and his lies if I wasn't flooding my heart with God and His truth?
I started reading as soon as I got back to school, thinking it would magically make everything perfect.
Wrong again.
The whole reason I made these resolutions was so I could live a more balanced lifestyle. As I started, God revealed areas in my life that needed some major healing. He particularly highlighted my love life. Wonderful.
Honesty hour;
Right now I am in a season of singleness.
Some days, I LOVE not having a boyfriend. I get to run around and hang out with my friends and go wherever whenever, without having to worry about anyone else and how my actions may affect them. I always joke and say that I'm in a commited relationship with Jesus and it can be really fun.
However, a lot of days I really just wish I had someone to hang out with. I just want a buddy to kiss occasionally, ya know?
For a while I thought this was desperation. I thought I needed a boyfriend to be 'ok' and that terrified me. However, God walked me through that and showed me that it wasn't that at all. He helped me understand how I was designed and my role as a women. Throughout this season I've kind of run from people, thinking that I had to do it ONLY with God or I was just an attention seeker because I needed someone to define me.
It's harsh, but it's honest.
However, I learned that I am designed to have relationship. In fact, we are always in relationship. For example, I have relationship with my mom and my dad and my dog and siblings and my friends. You ge thte point. We are not forced, or expected to do this by ourselves.
If you missed it, I'll say it a little louder... THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH WANTING A RELATIONSHIP as long as it's for the right reasons and God is your center before you enter one.
With that being said, the last couple days I sorta forgot this truth. I have been particularly lonely. I'm not unhappy. However, I want to take care of someone and love them the way Jesus loves me. I feel ready for that again. But, God reminded me today that, "where you are now is the best place to be."
I forget that just because I feel ready doesn't mean God is ready to share me. He is a jealous God and He can use us in our singleness in ways He can't when we are distracted by a boyfriend or girlfriend. God created marriage. It isn't bad but there is a specific use for singleness that you never get back when you enter that kind of relationship.
My conversation with God was so special. He showed me that this time was worth it and the guy I was waiting for is worth it, not matter how difficult or how long. He helped me to remember the importance of the present moment and the difference it can make.
You will never get NOW back. So, what are you doing right now that will further the kingdom of God? Are you smiling at a stranger? Are you tithing? Are you buying your friends coffee? Are you praying for someone? Are you writing a blog? Use this time wisely because everything you do, even the way you carry yourself, communicates a message.
Live in the now, dive into Gods word and let it reveal truth in the parts where the enemy planted lies and remember that, "where you are now is the best place to be."
I was praying about wanting adventure and being frustrated with my physical location because here, doesn't offer much of that. But, when God responded I knew He wasn't talking about school, or my dorm, or in this chair. He wanted to go deeper, He wanted to find out what I was really craving deep inside my heart. Relationship.
This year, I really wanted to prioritize 4 things; my friendships, school, the gym, but especially reading scripture. I had gotten really lazy with this. I felt like prayer was enough.
I was so wrong.
How was I supposed to protect myself against the enemy and his lies if I wasn't flooding my heart with God and His truth?
I started reading as soon as I got back to school, thinking it would magically make everything perfect.
Wrong again.
The whole reason I made these resolutions was so I could live a more balanced lifestyle. As I started, God revealed areas in my life that needed some major healing. He particularly highlighted my love life. Wonderful.
Honesty hour;
Right now I am in a season of singleness.
Some days, I LOVE not having a boyfriend. I get to run around and hang out with my friends and go wherever whenever, without having to worry about anyone else and how my actions may affect them. I always joke and say that I'm in a commited relationship with Jesus and it can be really fun.
However, a lot of days I really just wish I had someone to hang out with. I just want a buddy to kiss occasionally, ya know?
For a while I thought this was desperation. I thought I needed a boyfriend to be 'ok' and that terrified me. However, God walked me through that and showed me that it wasn't that at all. He helped me understand how I was designed and my role as a women. Throughout this season I've kind of run from people, thinking that I had to do it ONLY with God or I was just an attention seeker because I needed someone to define me.
It's harsh, but it's honest.
However, I learned that I am designed to have relationship. In fact, we are always in relationship. For example, I have relationship with my mom and my dad and my dog and siblings and my friends. You ge thte point. We are not forced, or expected to do this by ourselves.
If you missed it, I'll say it a little louder... THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH WANTING A RELATIONSHIP as long as it's for the right reasons and God is your center before you enter one.
With that being said, the last couple days I sorta forgot this truth. I have been particularly lonely. I'm not unhappy. However, I want to take care of someone and love them the way Jesus loves me. I feel ready for that again. But, God reminded me today that, "where you are now is the best place to be."
I forget that just because I feel ready doesn't mean God is ready to share me. He is a jealous God and He can use us in our singleness in ways He can't when we are distracted by a boyfriend or girlfriend. God created marriage. It isn't bad but there is a specific use for singleness that you never get back when you enter that kind of relationship.
My conversation with God was so special. He showed me that this time was worth it and the guy I was waiting for is worth it, not matter how difficult or how long. He helped me to remember the importance of the present moment and the difference it can make.
You will never get NOW back. So, what are you doing right now that will further the kingdom of God? Are you smiling at a stranger? Are you tithing? Are you buying your friends coffee? Are you praying for someone? Are you writing a blog? Use this time wisely because everything you do, even the way you carry yourself, communicates a message.
Live in the now, dive into Gods word and let it reveal truth in the parts where the enemy planted lies and remember that, "where you are now is the best place to be."
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